Halloween.

Halloween is a day when people can be someone else other than themselves. Truthfully, I don`t really like this 'holiday'. Although it`s interesting too see people in outrageous costumes and whatnot, but if I were to focus on the idea that Halloween is a day when people are not their true
selves. . then won`t everyday be Halloween?

I find that some people are always wearing a mask in my eyes, and it scares me. . once they are revealed. Because when they take off their mask, I am able to see a different side of them. A side that I find terrifying. A side that I originally thought they weren`t.

However, sometimes. . under that mask can be someone hopeful and angelic. Although this is just wishful thinking. . I hope everyone are able to show their true selves in this world. .

Because right now, I really don`t know what`s real and what`s fake anymore. But at the same time, I really don`t want to know. I blame myself for not know them too well. I just wish that everything I`m seeing is real and sincere right now.

The cruelty of the virtual world.

Sometimes, I wonder if blogging is a risky task to do. .
I guess there are some pros and cons of having a myspace, facebook,
twitter, blogspot, etc.
But do people really have to take it that far? To invade people`s privacy?
To spread the words that were meant for their friends and close ones to read?
To go beyond the limit of what an individual can tolerate?

I`m sure everyone makes mistakes, but as long as we are able to learn from
it, wouldn`t everything be okay then?
Well, in this one certain case, apparently not.

I mean, in a period of four years, many things can happen. Many things can change.
The human mind is very flexible, but certainly not everyone understands this.
What was said before does not determine what we say or think now.
An opinion is an opinion.. some may agree with it, others may not.
But one thing for sure, opinions can CHANGE.
For the better or for the worst. In this case, it was for the better.
But what happens? People dig up the past and ruin a person`s life.
The past is the past. Isn`t the present and future more important?

How can people just exaggerate on a person`s opinion and punish them physically,
mentally, and emotionally? I mean, hello? What happened to the freedom of speech?
Why does people have to be concern about one`s private matters when there are many more
important things to worry about?

Spreading rumours. Netizens. Antis. I`ve had enough, and so has everyone else.
It`s just so depressing, that what has been said can`t be taken back sometimes.

Is it really hard to forgive and forget?

為什麼如此悲觀. | Pessimism

為什麼我現在會悲觀啊?
我常常說，我是一個樂觀的人
但是我發現我不是.
如果我生氣的, 我就會表達出憤怒的外觀.
如果我很高興, 我會顯示我的笑容和笑聲.

我不能假裝我很高興 如果我其實悲傷或憤怒.

但是現在我認為是時間去學習.
如果我在痛苦，我要保持笑容.

其實我應該學怎麼樂觀 無論什麼情況
什麼人. . 我絕對可以做到 也許.
我其實是一個嚴重的人.
我不喜歡說話.

因為這個原因

其他人可能會認為我很傲慢

不想跟我說話.

可能是他們的問題
也許是我的問題.

aiyo 我不知道我談論什麼了

我只知道, 無論什麼

我一定要加油! :)

* Finding Myself

這是真正的我嗎？抑或是這只是一個幻想?
其實，我還沒有找到我真正的自己.
我只知道我想去一個地方, 沒有人認識我的地方,
也許我可以找到自己, 找到我的夢想.

我不明白. | Don't Understand.

我真不明白，為什麼有這樣的自私自利的人在這個世界上.
人是會改變的，但是最重要的是..變為好..還是壞.
我真的很希望有一天她會明白..
她的行動使許多人受到傷害，失望，反感.
要我真心接受她, 她需要先改變自己.
我真的不想失去這個朋友.
不過，如果她不想改變的話，我已無話可說.

* 聖誕節2007

Walking through the sadistic rain,
with each drop trickling down my skin,
this wound of mines was too agonizing.
However, I did it. I didn`t cry.
I stood up by myself, feeling the
strength that every human being
could obtain. I felt stronger than
before. No, I AM stronger than before.
Sometimes, I look back at my weak, helpless self,
but it only made me realize how pitiful I was.
Today, I will make a promise to myself that I will always
stay strong. This Christmas will be one of my most
unforgettable memories. One of the reasons
why I love Christmas is because it's the day
where I can see many beautiful smiles on people's
faces. Their happiness is like my happiness. It`s
a remedy that dominates my grief.

* Only Love

Listen closely with your ears
From the shadows
You can hear the sighs
Weary of each day
facing tomorrow is probably frightening

Feeling left out by the world
So they don't feel lonely
The freezing wind against their skin
Let's block it together

There's only love, what I have so so small but
If we share it miracles can happen
Only our love can bring a bright smile to those dark faces
That is the power of our small love

Hold their hand first
in their young eyes tears won't do

Pressing down on their frail shoulders that heavy reality
They lose even their childlike dreams

Feeling left out by the world
So they don't feel left out by the world

The freezing wind against their skin
Let's block it together

There's only love, what I have so so small but
If we share it miracles can happen
Only our love can bring a bright smile to those dark faces
That is the power of our small love Woh~

Don't just walk past them
They're looking for your hand
Like a bright light let's share a love like that

Yeah the world has become a tough place for those
people who just want some air I won't make you feel lonely again

So I pray. God! Every single moment the unfillable emptiness! Those who need strength are reaching for our hands! Please, hold your hand and everybody will be happy

There's only love with only love we will live here
Even though it's tough (it is still beautiful world)
Only our love through the unbearable obstacles that we will meet
Because someone will lend their hand a warm world will be formed.

translation credits go to aikomidori@soompi